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IS THE GRASS GREENER?

a trip to your city

I was there in your city that day telling everyone I'd avoid you
But deep down, I had hoped you would show in the possible places I'd go
But you never showed

I left, but you never showed

Saw our old friends when I came that day, I thought that you'd be there amongst them
I'd been waiting through silence for months, I thought you'd be reminded of us
But you never showed
False hope, 'cuz you never showed

I wanted to see you
A look would suffice
You know our paths barely align
Is this how we're ending?
Is this how we say goodbye
To four years of our lives?

Ooh
So close, but so far
Ooh, oh
Wanna be where you are

We were just only a few miles away but our hearts felt like 10 worlds apart (So close, but so far)
I can't pretend I didn't wanna say hi for the sake of reliving old times (Wanna be where you are)

I don't know when I'll see you again, I just hope that was not my last chance
In a year if I come here again, I will gladly make space for you
I just hope you show
So I won't leave alone

mascara tears

I shouldn't be here at this party
I'm so distracted and distraught by what you said to me that night
More empty promises to chew on
And hoping maybe you have changed and we can rewrite all our wrongs

But you left me on a cliff and didn't even turn around
And you know that I've been hurting yet you left me here to die
I'm alone now in a town where no one
Even knows your name or who you are
Didn't think it'd be this hard to let go

Me and my mascara tears
They fall
(Even when I try to burn it down)
(Even when I hide you always come around)
I'm
Drowning in the noise to blur it all
(Even when I try to burn it down)
Can you save me? (Even when I hide)
Because I (you always come around)

I think I see you at this party
I watched you walk right by but I didn't know just quite how to say hi
I hate the clothes that I am wearing
Feel like a stranger in my skin here waiting
Hoping you'll come forth

'Cuz you left me on the edge and didn't even turn around
You built up my expectations then you left me here to die
Now I'm lonely in a crowd where no one
Even knows your name or who you are
Didn't think it'd be this hard to let you go

Me and my mascara tears
They fall
(Even when I try to burn it down)
(Even when I hide you always come around) Oh I'm
Losing my control against it all
(Even when I try to burn it down) No no no
(Even when I hide you always come around) Hey yeah yeah

Oh I just can't be here at this party
(Even when I try to burn it down)
I won't lie won't lie won't lie oh
No no no no (There's nothing I would change, there is nothing I would change)
(Even when I try to burn it down)
(Even when I hide you always come around)

borderline

I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye I
Could not look at you much longer
The more that I stare the more I feel drawn to stay
And we both know that is danger

Don't fret
I see the way you smile when she walks right by
No worries
I promise I will step aside
Just give me time

To grieve
And to stand here on my own
To learn how to be at peace with the way it is (All I want is peace)
And I'll try
Just give me a week a month or five
I
Will keep the pain and hurt inside
The borderline

I'm sorry it's hard to stand by your side
I
Don't think I can be here sober
(Don't think I can be I can be I can be)
The more that I talk the more I'm afraid that I
Will let my guard down even further
(Don't let your guard let your guard let your guard down) Oh

I know
There's yearning in your eyes when she walks right by
So
Don't stress
I'll let everything I feel subside
Just give me time

The borderline (Just give me a week a month or five)
The borderline
The border
All I want is
Peace

(Keep it in the border border)
(Keep it in the border border)
(Keep it in the border border)
All I want is
Peace

delusions

I can't pretend like I don't think about you when the sun rises
It washes right over me
I'm stranded with you at sea

I never thought that I would ever feel this strongly about it
But honestly what's the use
If I can't get close to you?

So I act like I'm all okay
When I'm just lost, displaced
Imagining being hand in hand
Intertwined in grains of sand
And it's all I do
I picture life with you
'Cuz I
Don't know how to make you mine, so

It's such a shame
That the only way to have you is in my mind
Ain't it sad?
I'll live with my delusions to be fine
And to pass the time
I'll be just fine

Mmm

I can't pretend like I don't wanna feel your arms around me
The warmth of your company
The sun above you and me (the sun above you and me)

I picture us amongst the roses and daises, lying
So at peace with the birds and trees
Don't you see what we could be?

So I pretend it's all okay
When you're around, I crave
To walk beside you, hand in hand
Intertwined in blades of grass
And it's all I do
'Cuz I can't be with you
Tonight
I don't know to make you mine
Oh

It's such a shame
That the only way to have you is in my mind
Ooh, oh
Ain't it sad?
I'll live with my delusions to be fine
And to pass the time

I'll let my mind make a fool out of me
Pretend like these dreams can be reality somehow
Oh, but I can't, I can't, I can't, oh
Ignore the emotions right in front of me
When I need your love and your presence to breathe, so I
Need you tonight

It's such a shame
That the only way to have you is in my mind
Ooh, ooh, oh
Ain't it sad?
I'll live with my delusions to be fine
And to pass the time
I'll be just
Fine

summer of '21

Used to spend every evening together
Chasing down the street it didn't matter the weather
All I had was you and me
No one even had to see

For a moment I didn't think of the limits
Laughing on a call that seemed like hours not minutes
Time can be a cruel thing
I woke up to a different scene where

Someone said you're out there doing better now
Thriving surviving making living worth the while
But I just sometimes wish I still were by your side
Wanted to be there for the ride, oh

But you're gone
Things have changed
Say goodbye to yesterday
So we go and move on
Even when we know I wanted you the most
I guess I gotta let you go
Even if we don't meet again what's done is done
I wouldn't change a thing 'bout the summer of '21

Used to think we were better together
Picture perfect movie scenes and different endeavors
You had seen a side of me
That no one ever got to see

Every now and then I'm diving back in it
Soak in all the memories so I can pretend that
Somehow you're still here with me
I don't want to live in some dream where

Someone says you're out there doing better now
Thriving surviving living life without me now
But the truth hurts sometimes
I know that I'm not by your side
Wanted to be there for the ride

But if somehow
I saw you
In or outside our hometown
I don't know
If I could
Even greet you with a smile
'Cuz each of
The "what ifs?"
Flood into my mind but I
Hope the wave will soon subside, oh

But you're gone (but you're gone)
Things have changed (things have changed)
Say goodbye to yesterday (Oh)
So we go and move on (oh)
Even when we know I wanted you the most
I guess I gotta let you go (I guess I gotta let you go)
Even if we don't meet again what's done is done
I wouldn't change a thing 'bout the summer of '21

No no
The summer of '21
(There's nothing I would change there is nothing I would change)

Even if you did forget it
There's no way I would regret it (There's nothing I would change there is nothing I would change)

I'd love you all again in the summer of '21